The last three days had been very difficult, in addition to the stomach problems, my shoulder and chest area, including the root of my arm had been excruciatingly painful, neuropathic pain is a living hell. I had been crying everyday, most of the day. I know that the pain comes from me using my arms, it's all the muscles engaged in using my arms.
I can't help but worry about things I can't do that needs to done at home. Yes, thankful everyday that I get help but with the worsening of my arms, there's more ad more things that needed to be done and Dora doesn't have all the time to do it for me. Simple tasks like my mail, my bills, application forms that needed to be filled out. I can't use my hands to write anymore. I'm hoping that it will heal again and not continue to degenerate.
Making love to Kevin is almost impossible. I can lie down and not participate!loll Poor guy. It's hard to use my arms and my legs.
I wonder how I will type in my computer when the time comes that I can't move my fingers anymore. About taking care of myself? It seems that everyday it gets closer and closer. I guess if others can, why can't I? haha. I guess with every situation we tend to adapt. It's human instinct. We can work it out, is what the Beatles say.
